I'm learning...

I intended to write more regularly -ooopsies!

I had my monthly appointment at the weight management  program yesterday.  I am down a total of 13 pounds since starting the program.  My blood pressure was SUPER! Thanks to that walking I'm doing, I've got it a little more under control - not that it was a problem, but there is family history there.

I have 10 pounds to lose now so that my BMI goes under 50.  That means that I can do the lap-band procedure as an outpatient.  I. must.lose.the.ten.   Granted I have like 3 months, but I also have a 30 year class reunion in August. I am doing a 5K walk in early May. I'm also doing a Dirty Girl event near Milwaukee in the middle of August - unless I manage to score a surgery date by then in which case I won't be getting dirty with my girl-peeps. 

Things I learned at yesterday's class:

1. We truly are all different as we pursue this thing called health.  I was in class with two other people and we were all three very very different in our approaches and in our paths.  I have to say I feel really really smart about this process and how I'm going to get to the big day as healthfully as possible.

2. When I want to, I have amazing determination.  Strangely, this is one of the first times I have put the focus on my self and worked hard to achieve something primarily for ME.  I continue to learn that I am worthy of good health, wellness, and looking like the woman I am on the inside. Cuz inner-skinny-bitch ROCKS!

We know that's NOT what I meant.

Annnd, that's not it either. You get the point.

3. Grazing vs 3 squares - I have been grazing throughout the day to get my protein in.  I'm not eating as many veggies and fruits as I should but I've got this protein thing down.  So last night I bought the baby carrrots in the bag and dragged them to work with me.  I've eaten some.  They give me hiccups.  But I ate 'em anyway. Maybe I'm sucking air. But I'm getting in the stupid vegetables.

4. I'm prone to celebratory food fun.  We had spaghetti with meat sauce and garlic cheese bread for supper last night.  OMG - it was delish.  I've eaten a bit of pasta, but this was pasta-palooza.  Naturally this morning I had to have a chocolate bismark with chocolate cream filling chocolate frosting and chocolate sprinkles.  The Kwik Trip knew I was on my way.  I chased it with a chocolate milk.  That's the end of the food fest.  Now I have to get serious again.

5. Cleaning out the fridge is empowering.  I don't have enough room to see all my veggies on the shelves because of all the crap and leftover containers and rotting stuff I forgot about and jars of pickles we inherited from my mom when she died.  Who the hell needs 6 jars of pickles in their fridge?  I made my son drain and dump them all out.  I don't much like pickles.  I felt bad dumping them. But now I can see what's all in that fridge and maybe won't let stuff rot and leak all over.


Things are going along well. I feel good.  The only "issue" is that I think "that time of the month" is freekin' early. I.HATE.IT.A.LOT!!! 

Hopefully it will pass quickly so I can get on with the rest of my life.

TTFN!